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April 2, 2008
A Piece of Peace
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There are places I'll remember all my life,
though some have changed
some forever not for better
some have gone and some remain.
All these places have their moments,
with lovers and friends I still can recall;
some are dead and some are living
in my life I've loved them all.
~.John Lennon/Paul McCartney
April 2, 2008 at 11:47 am
How thought-provoking, how inspirational. They are words to enrich our lives by.
Love you.
Love, Hugs, Kisses, Peace
April 2, 2008 at 11:48 am
How very beautiful,true and meaningful.
I know this will be so meaningful to YOU as it is with ME as I quess it is with all of us who read this.
Always in my thoughts - always lovingly.
Thank - you so very much for sharing this with us.
Diane
April 2, 2008 at 11:57 am
Spot on! Although, as one who is going through an er hem… tempering patch, physical painwise, I could do with turning the flames under my frying pan down a tad at the moment though, if only to allow me to enjoy the pretty flames!
Very true though, we are the sum of what we have endured.
Cheers
BC
April 2, 2008 at 12:19 pm
Very nice one, Ruby, and so true. I am very glad to see you posting again.
April 2, 2008 at 4:48 pm
love the photo…love the message
(may need to print it out and put it up somewhere….)
April 2, 2008 at 7:55 pm
That’s just as it should be.
April 3, 2008 at 12:07 am
I’ve never read that before, what a wonderful reminder
April 3, 2008 at 5:47 am
k………
I wanna own that.
(((((((((( RubyShooz )))))))))))))
April 3, 2008 at 5:47 am
ah yes, how true! Beautiful indeed.
lotsa hugs,
Ingrid
April 3, 2008 at 8:18 am
Wow, what a glorious picture have met me at a moment I clicked on your link!
I am not my pain,
I am not my past.
I am that which has emerged from the fire.
Wow, once again.
That’s the most glorious news - God so graciously makes us the children of the light from our prior weakness.
April 3, 2008 at 10:10 am
This is too fantastic for words– I’m printing this one out!
April 3, 2008 at 12:51 pm
What a marvellous, deceptively simple hymn to optimism!
Thanks for sharing, Rube!
Pepsoid
x
April 3, 2008 at 7:27 pm
Wow, this was so powerful. I really relate to it. I think everyone can. Great post.
kim
April 3, 2008 at 9:50 pm
Oh My god can i print that out? I needed to read that today!
April 4, 2008 at 2:32 am
Beautiful Ruby, thank you.
April 4, 2008 at 8:35 am
Like a phoenix creating ourselves anew. Beautiful.
April 4, 2008 at 8:08 pm
Oh Ruby…I breathed that in grrrl. So powerful. Now if only I could remember it.
Love ya!
April 4, 2008 at 9:32 pm
Brilliantly inspirational, brilliantly conveyed, a real treasure of words…
April 5, 2008 at 8:49 am
I can only define myself as the man I am at the moment of the heartbeat.
Peace and Love Ruby
mark
April 6, 2008 at 10:04 am
Lorri, I feel enriched by them too. Much love back to you dear heart.
Love, Hugs, Kisses, Peace
Di, Beautiful, true and meaningful - and so very deep and deeply felt; by me anyway and apparently by you as well.
Glad to hear I’m in your heart but wishing for more. Somehow, I always wind up lacking. Much love, peace.
BabyChaos, You’re getting through it with flying colors and I’m very happy for you. I’m sorry for the moments of pain and I can empathize and do indeed feel compassion.
There are times when I don’t know how to turn down the flames and have to just let themselves burn themselves out but enjoying them sounds like the most healthy solution. Let’s hear it for fanning the flames!
Cheers.
JerseyGuy/R.! Glad to see you and I’m glad you like the sentiment expressed above. It seemed fitting at the time. Peace my friend.
Katherine, Hello, it’s so very good to see you, welcome home. I’m glad you enjoyed them and printing them out sounds like a fine idea! Peace.
Purefnevyl, That’s exactly right on and hey, I’m happy to see you here - I wondered where you’d gone, how you were etc. Peace and love.
Lumpy, It looks somewhat familiar to me - I guess I shoulda looked to see who wrote it. Hugs for you today.
Mel, Take it. I’ve been thinking of you, worrying. (((((((((Mel)))))))))))
Nature Gal/L., Beautiful, it really is. Big hugs for the world traveler today and I hope you have a beautiful day.
(Good day for gardening there?)
Tomas, I do love the way you have with words - an artist with words too! Wishing you beauty in your life today and freedom in your heart.
MoonbeaMcQueen, Print away my friend. Peace and beauty.
Pepsoid, Isn’t it lovely? I’m glad to see that you mentioned the “deceptivity” part of it because it does exist I think. Years ago I would not have understood it I think. You’re welcome and thank you for your input. Peace now.
Krkbaker, I wonder how many really do relate to it deep down….I think there may be some who cannot reach that place nor even know it’s there and for them I feel sorry. Peace.
KayleeTwo?,Take it, print it, frame it, include it in your daily reading…
Wishing you peace and warmth today - along with the good vibes. Always love.
Author, Welcome. I’m glad you enjoyed it and I’m glad you stopped by as well. Peace to you today.
Lisa Damian, Welcome, I’ve noticed many phoenixes in my lifetime, have you? Thank you for stopping by, I’m glad to see you. Wishing you peace and joy today.
Ronnie Ann, Remember to exhale love. Wanna remember it, do print it. Peace my friend.
CeeQue, Isn’t it lovely? You seem to have a bit of a gift with words as well my friend. Peace, love.
TWM, You sound very much like me at times. You’ve got me thinking once again and I’m going to need to put some more thought into it because I’m gone off on a tangent now. (Obsession and compulsion - hm - )
Peace and gentle hugs.
April 6, 2008 at 10:40 pm
That was truy beautiful. And something I needed to read.
Thank you.
April 7, 2008 at 11:37 pm
i needed this right now, right here. i’ve always believed in loving more, and that was just beginning to give way. not any more.
thanks to your post! thank you!
April 8, 2008 at 10:50 pm
I really like this poem, Robyshooz…I would say that I define myself by it!…
April 9, 2008 at 12:03 am
ColorfulVision, Welcome! I’m so glad you stopped by and liked the words/poem/way to live. I’m so glad you stopped by as well. I hope to come and visit you when I have time which I hope will be soon. My time has been somewhat constrained lately though. One more welcome. I really am glad to see you here. Peace to you today and every day.
ScarletBegonia, I’m so glad you came to read it and that you heard it coming through.
You’re welcome. Peace and love.
Dharmabum, Aw, you’re entirely welcome and I do hope it helps you to open your heart to more loving - in all ways.
Wishing you peace, love and understanding.
April 9, 2008 at 10:44 pm
I love this! Printing to hang. Thanks for sharing!
April 9, 2008 at 11:19 pm
ToBeMe,
Yay! I’m glad you think this is something you’d like to hang up. That’s a good thing and shows it means a lot to you. Somehow it doesn’t surprise me that you’d like. It just feels right.
I hope you’re having a lovely day or shall have a lovely whatever. Peace my friend.
April 10, 2008 at 5:33 am
“I do not define myself by how many roadblocks have appeared in my path; I define myself by the courage I’ve found to forge new roads.”
*nodding*
Road forging in a good thing. Adventures get to be had while you’re forging!
Thinkin’ I’m forging….LOL
((((((((((( RubyShooz ))))))))))))
April 10, 2008 at 11:57 am
Hello Mel…low?
Careful Mel, with all that nodding you’re going to become a bobble-head.
I can see you out there with a dozer, a grader and whatever other sort of huge machinery…or do you use a machete like I do? I always figure out the hardest way and go with that.
It’s good to see you dearest Mel. How about forging a way on over to my other blog;
http://athymeofpeas.com
?
It’s not all radical,rabid political or anything that bites…I hope not anyway. I know I need to do some of my own visiting too but I’m going through another edema bout for no reason I can see - all swollen up and on and off feverish-ness … with some fervor-ness thrown in to complete me.
I love my ((((Mel))))
April 10, 2008 at 9:25 pm
That was beautiful, Ruby. Thank you for posting it.
It was just what I needed to hear and know right now. I’m going to print it out and keep it somewhere where I can see and read it every day -
Cyber-hugs and blessings,
Loving Annie
April 10, 2008 at 9:34 pm
Darling Loving Annie, (Yes, MoonSage is another nickname I have been using laely with the new site here and there.
It’s always such a joy to see you. I’m so glad you enjoyed the photo with the beautiful words that went along with it.
Much love to you and blessings offered back along with a wish for serenity and tranquility for you.
April 11, 2008 at 12:39 pm
That’s fantastic … very compliment
April 11, 2008 at 8:04 pm
Thanks but i am not doing well I dont know how to deal with all that has been going on in my life HOW doyou respond to a doctor telling you that you dont have long to live?
April 12, 2008 at 12:33 am
Innovatel, Welcome! I’m glad you stopped by and glad you liked the post. Peace today.
Kaylee2, I’m so sorry you’re so unwell. How to deal with what’s been going on is to lean on the support you have and if you don’t have any, get some.
About the doctors - they’re often quite wrong and I take everything they say with a grain of salt. Concentrate on the now because tomorrow is not here.
Much love and many hugs.
April 12, 2008 at 7:47 am
Ruby I know you can not do what I am about to say because we are in different situations but I wanted to tell you because I know you will be happy for me.
With the exception of my insulin I walked away from the other drugs , including the opiate, that I was on. Just stopped doing them 14 days ago, The pain is about what you would expect but I feel free, even with it and am once again learning to accept it as just another physical feeling, not like pleasure but just physical.Something even less than my thoughts and certainly no longer able to touch that place deep within me that is the castle keep.
I am with you now, on the same page finally ready to give you what I can.
Peace mixed with great love.
mark
April 12, 2008 at 9:58 am
Ms. Ruby you are an inspiration.
Dr. B
April 12, 2008 at 11:27 am
Beautiful! Thanks for sharing this. I love this simple yet very enlightening post.
Have a Great Weekend!
April 13, 2008 at 9:25 am
Good Sunday morning to you dear Ruby/Moon Sage ! How are you feeling ?
I loved that definition so much, I ‘borrowed’ it and posted it too (w/ a link to you, of course).
It just heals my soul every time I read it. Thank you so much again for that gift
Blessings & Light,
Loving Annie
April 13, 2008 at 11:25 am
@RubyShooZ -> Ohhh … thanks
Peace always … It’s better 
April 13, 2008 at 10:13 pm
That is absolutely beautiful. I’ve been doing a lot of spiritual reading lately (just finished a really inspiration story of overcoming and recovery — Nub, by Emile Barrios) trying to find ways to overcome my disability. Your writing reminds me that I am not my disability, and I shall read this every day to keep reminding myself of that.
April 14, 2008 at 3:11 am
We, my walking friend and i, stop and open this page every day and posit on you.
Peace
mark
April 14, 2008 at 7:21 am
Thought provoking. A noble message. Quite inspirational.Thanks for sharing.
God bless.
April 14, 2008 at 2:42 pm
Thank you.
I have read your post once again today and I have read it as the greetings. Wow, it was so fine (today is my birthday and therefore I don’t want to pretend the wise - I just want to smile today- I am the gratitude now and know just one word - Thank you.
Let it be our signature
Thank you
April 15, 2008 at 4:05 am
Yes…it will be a good day.
April 15, 2008 at 7:54 pm
You have no idea how much I needed to read this right NOW… THANK YOU
{{{HUGS}}}
April 16, 2008 at 12:29 am
Inspiring as well as a noble message. Let me save this picture in my pc.
April 16, 2008 at 4:17 am
Taxes done for another year
government
never reads your post; fools
April 16, 2008 at 1:16 pm
Very cool . . .
April 17, 2008 at 4:59 am
George Harrison singing at 6 am not a bad treat for the middle of the day.
Peace
mark
April 18, 2008 at 4:03 am
an hour earlier today and here is John Lennon in my ears.
Singing of peace and love and the possibility of a better world.
You, ruby, must be a Beatles fan because my music is playing straight down the list.
Coincidence, no I think not.
Peace
mark
April 18, 2008 at 2:05 pm
TWM/Mark, I might could stop taking the pain meds and since you’ve mentioned it I’ve thought it over again and again.
First though, I wanted to say how fantastically happy I am for you to have walked away from all the (what I call) “Dr.Dope”. That’s HUGE news! What a big step for you after all this time and I do know why you did it as well.
I’ve had friends who described pain as just another physical feeling; albeit not a nice feeling but one you can put into a place and just look at it differently.
I read a book that my FRIEND Tom suggested I read (he liked it and recommended it and I liked and recommend if you’re a BIG reader) and it’s called “The Infinite Jest”. In part of it a guy who is at a rehab for some sort of dope and who has been clean for about a year I think winds up getting shot and being in the hospital and turning down the pain meds they were offering him. He described the pain and how he dealt with it much as you have described.
Thank you for being with me, on the same page and for being such a good friend here, I really do appreciate you. You are one who is actually walking the talk and not just giving it lip service.
I love you.
Dr.TomBibey, Hello my friend, I’m glad to see you and I’m sorry it’s taken so long for me to respond. I’m so glad you liked the post, I did too. I cannot claim to be any inspirationist, especially lately with my long absence from here.
Much love as always.
WaterLearner, Welcome back. Whenever I see your name I smile. Something to do with the water. I’m glad you liked the post as well. It’s just so …. right!
You have a beautiful day, weekend and everything.
Loving Annie, I know I’m very very hopefully not *too* late with a good Sunday morning back to you (although it’s now Friday). Some days “How are you feeling?” can be a hard question to answer. Today, I’m just okay. I do hope that all is well with you.
I’m glad you took the post and shared it - it’s one I hope many see. You are very welcome and I think of you often.
Peace, love and understanding along with much light and love to you.
Innovatel, Yes, peace always. If I could speak French I’d probably come and leave a comment on your blog like I usually do when someone is new here but alas, I don’t. Take care and stay cool.
Ruth, Welcome. It is beautiful, isn’t it? The book you mentioned sounds interesting.
You spoke of recovery and disabilities and I do hope that you’re doing okay. Peace and soothing thoughts your way.
TWM/Mark, Thank you for “positing on” me every day with your walking friend. How freaking cool is that? And how nice you have a walking friend. I wish I had one. Here’s to peace today, everywhere.
Surjit, Nice to see you, it’s been a while. I do hope all is well with you. I’m glad you liked the message.
Always love.
Tomas, Ah, another one I smile when I see because I know the love in your heart and I’ve seen your beautiful art, both in words and digitally shown.
Belated I know but Happy Birthday my friend.
I love what you said: “I am the gratitude…” Now that’s a beautiful thought. Thank you as well.
TWM/Mark, I do hope you had a beautiful one and man I’m loving your attitude about it all. ((((Mark))))
Dawn, Baby, we all need to read it, but more importantly, know it in our hearts. Keep it, share it, pass it on. And, I love you always. ((((Dawn))))
ShoeOracle, Welcome. Very interesting name there and I enjoyed your site and loved the shoes!! I found several pairs I’d love to have in my dreams. Gee, I wonder how you found me.
I’m glad you liked the message and yes, please do save it. Peace to you today.
TWM/Mark, You mean the FBI isn’t pouring over my every word? I’m in tears now. Congratulations on finishing your taxes. Ours are always done immediately because we can never wait to get our hot little hands on the money. Again, (((((((Mark))))))))
OceanShaman, Hi love! I doubt you’ll read this but I love you, miss you. Hope you’re out there riding the waves, free as a bird.
TWM/Mark, Alirighty then, it’s just you and I….and George!! My sweet lord, George has taken to walking with you? Now that’s excellent. He was an exquisite performer.
I read the book, “The Beatles” and learned quite a bit about him and them that I didn’t know and boy that was a good book.
Yes, the Beatles have been with me my whole life, through all the important events. In 1983 when my dad was dying and for days afterwards the song playing was always “Let it Be”. When my mom died in 1989 “Here comes the sun” was playing and again, for days afterwards it did.
And now, with you leaving me a message every day like this, all the songs are playing. I’ve loved having you stand by me like this when everyone has gone. (Well, there are a couple who have remained or become true friends - some who just appeared and became friends - and never left my side, no matter what.) I do wish I physically had a walking buddy though.
I really do love and appreciate you Mark - you are truly noble, humble, gallent and sweet. Wishing you peace, love and comfort today and every day.
April 19, 2008 at 4:21 am
Ruby
Today it is Johnny Cash and his last album. Beautiful soft throughout. Currently at this stop it is the appropriate song, “On the evening train. Rose of my heart, as I finish up here”
So it’s been about a month now and the pain levels are not allowed to increase because I won’t allow it. I had a semi-permanent fix on one side of the neck that will mostly likely have to be repeated a number of times. * Shrug* it is a wee bit achy there today and may get worse for another day or two if I allow it so. The good part is that it seems to have increased the tactile ability of my left hand. Never a bad thing for a scribbler.
Got home from the treatment yesterday to a call from my primary care physician’s office and they want me to go see a vascular surgeon, for some blockage in my leg veins.
Again *shrug* ok. It has the wife a bit worried but I am beyond worry or care, [maybe he will get my feet warm again, it has been a lot of years ha ha ha ha.] Which makes it easier to give her some of the comfort she needs during this thing called the aging process of a very long time smoker, untrained worker around asbestos and thirteen year long diagnosed diabetic.
We who know, and you are one, never NEED a physical walking partner Ruby. We do fine with that One we have. Want though, like need, and one will be provided you.
Aw shucks ma’am quit saying stuff like that about me you’re ruining my cred as a prick ha ha ha ha ha ha
Be well
yet
more importantly
be at
Peace
mark
April 19, 2008 at 4:33 am
Never got a chance to see the Beatles live but I did see the concert for Bangladesh when George Harrison and Ravi Shankur brought it to Philadelphia, while I was passing through there.
just a bit O’ trivia.
peace
mark
April 19, 2008 at 1:46 pm
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April 20, 2008 at 6:26 am
“Holy shit Batman we are either writing long replies today or that five hours of sleep really thew our timing off” the boy wonder said to his mentor, “The light of day is upon us and Led Zeppelin is hitting No Quarter on the juke box; we’re already through the L’s in our play list.”
“Not to worry boy wonder, it’s all good, even bat’s get caught in the light of day occasionally. Besides this is a part of a box set. Lay back and enjoy it, while I drive us back to the batcave.”
Peace my friend
mark
April 21, 2008 at 3:55 am
It’s Monday and Leon Russell is doing his Cajun Love Song with the Queen of the roller derby…Shhh Ruby don’t tell anyone but I like this Old Leon Russell “Carney” disc waaaaaaay more than 95% of the hundreds that come before it or after it, on my personal hit parade. He was a hoo doo voo doo man who let himself get a bit paunch.
Personally I was the other way fat lost it and then got the paunch and live with it.
*Sigh* the joys of youth left in “Acid Annapolis”
but then “If the Shoe Fits” I’ll wear it even with the holes.
away away we go to the schmuk who I hope is just not another medical asshole…later for him.
Aleichem Shalom.
mark
April 22, 2008 at 3:53 am
Ahh Ruby
what luck this morning and in a way appropriate of my own feelings even if I do not understand the words.
Fado Curvo singing from her self titled album.
This Fado music first developed in the brothels of Spain is soft, elegant and wrenching in her voice, I have great love for music and it’s powers of healing the soul.
I saw the vascular surgeon about my legs yesterday. He was an old Spaniard with a light accent and we laughed.
He felt my feet, the blood flow with his hands and told me to come back next year for follow up. I have added him to the short list of Doctors I have met and will respect. Thats five out of over a hundred. And two of the five no longer practice in my area. Yes it is a very short list, conjured up simply through experience with them that ply this trade of “healing arts.”
Much Peace to you this morning Ruby.
and Love as well
mark
April 22, 2008 at 10:57 pm
Thank you for that lifet of spirit
April 23, 2008 at 3:28 am
The plane descends and lands on time at 0414. It is dark out yet and I have been flying long enough to have gotten to the East coast, had I been aboard.
Controlling ones pain in sleep is a waste of resource as long as one sleeps enough. I am not that good at it, so I sleep when and where I can Ruby.
I like the wee hours for strolling though, the darkness is safety here in this city. The creatures of the night fear any who are out, because they know their own insanity, they believe it affects everyone.
Mike Oldfield…ever hear of him? Basically a studio musician, very well versed in a number of instruments. Did that chilling soundtrack way back when on the first “Exorcist.”
When we landed this morning we found ourselves in the M’s, Meat Beat Manifesto…very early Techno and house music, wildly popular in Europe, not so much here. I will admit, it was not the way to begin walking this morning but I let it go and listened though to Mellisa Ethridge and now have Mike Oldfield taking me away. I like his two Discs “Tubular Bells” 1 & 2…both are 99.9 instrumental which he composed and played all of the instruments on, through the wonder of tracking and over dubbing. Awesome when you know it is all him.
Two hours now and I must leave my own cacoon and take a neighbor to school, he is learning basic building repair skills in hope he can have a better future than he had past. Good thing there is a radio in the car.
Be well.
Peace my Friend
mark
April 24, 2008 at 2:50 am
That is so nice.
Very encouraging.
April 24, 2008 at 3:50 am
Ruby I have a dirty little secret. We are still in the M’s of the hit parade and Now we are on a long Voyage through Mozart.
“La Nozzi du Figgaro” began this trip.
Oh the secret? You want my little secret? OK but don’t tell anyone. I have been listening to classical music all of my life, and when in my youth my “friends” went to the opposing camps of the Beatles or the Stones; I had a hard time choosing whether I preferred Mozart or Bach.
I only listened to rock and roll when there was someone else around. Whenever I was alone I listened to this music. Liking symphonic pieces but then understanding that Baroque compositions were my favorite of all.
I had a small transistor radio no one knew about that I had fixed the tuning dial so it never moved off the best reception for the local classical music station. This I kept under my pillow and allowed the music to soothe the troubles of my young child’s day away in my dreams.
I can still hear my father, “Where the hell did all of the batteries go?” ha ha ha ha Hey pops this was the one good addiction you got me into, thanks for enabling it.
I swear and this is I suppose to my shame as an mid-teen ager in the late 60’s, didn’t know who Janis Joplin was and never appreciated that blue eyed soul until she was done making music.
Nope, I had Beethoven, Bach, Hyden, Mozart that had captured me and comforted me through both the good and bad trips of solitary LSD use. They were good and still are good companions.
Even If I have expanded myself somewhat to like now…ummm what was their name?…Err ahhh yeah that’s them…The Who.
Peace and Joy this fine medical madness morning, more facet joint injections in store later. *shrug* it’s not as bad as it sounds.
April 24, 2008 at 3:53 am
Ruby I have a dirty little secret. We are still in the M’s of the hit parade and Now we are on a long Voyage through Mozart.
“La Nozzi du Figgaro” began this trip.
Oh the secret? You want my little secret? OK but don’t tell anyone. I have been listening to classical music all of my life, and when in my youth my “friends” went to the opposing camps of the Beatles or the Stones; I had a hard time choosing whether I preferred Mozart or Bach.
I only listened to rock and roll when there was someone else around. Whenever I was alone I listened to this music. Liking symphonic pieces but then understanding that Baroque compositions were my favorite of all.
I had a small transistor radio no one knew about that I had fixed the tuning dial so it never moved off the best reception for the local classical music station. This I kept under my pillow and allowed the music to soothe the troubles of my young child’s day away in my dreams.
I can still hear my father, “Where the hell did all of the batteries go?” ha ha ha ha Hey pops this was the one good addiction you got me into, thanks for enabling it.
I swear and this is I suppose to my shame as an mid-teen ager in the late 60’s, didn’t know who Janis Joplin was and never appreciated that blue eyed soul until she was done making music.
Nope, I had Beethoven, Bach, Hyden, Mozart that had captured me and comforted me through both the good and bad trips of solitary LSD use. They were good and still are good companions.
Even If I have expanded myself somewhat to like now…ummm what was their name?…Err ahhh yeah that’s them…The Who.
Peace and Joy this fine medical madness morning, more facet joint injections in store later. *shrug* it’s not as bad as it sounds.
But I have some more traveling to do before the cab gets here so I leave you with the sounds of Mozart’s piano concerto #11 in A major.
mark
April 25, 2008 at 3:27 am
We’re “following the river, down the highway through the cradle of the civil war, we’re going to Graceland”
But we ain’t poor boys or pilgrims. We’ve been down that highway many times, no?
Graceland what a name for a place, considering all of the madness that went on there.
As you can see, we somehow made it through Nirvana, to the Oasis, now Paul Simon is driving me around. It’s ok, Ruby, he’s a good helmsman.
I sailed through the injections yesterday and now (as it is supposed to be) the pain levels have increased to their previous levels and the left side which has been through the entire protocol is slowly increasing.
This too is ok, I drop a Neurontin bomb on it once in a awhile, and then sort it all out and compartmentalize the pain.
I learned this holistic approach to pain somewhere far in my past Ruby, I wonder at what point I let the medical community lead me away from it?
I like going through the treatments, really, I do. This is THE ONLY doctor and nursing staff I have ever met, who’s sense of humor matches my own. I swear to God I had to tell them to shut up because it was almost as if they were testing my ability at control, by trying to make me laugh while this guy had a six in needle in my neck. They almost had me.
The doc tapes blue paper over my face, sky blue, I look at it and then I am able to leave, go away from that table I am on to the cosmos the cold blackness filled with different universes and traverse that space, while my body is in the repair shop. It is good to see what has been created for us, again. I never tire at the sight of it and the different galaxies out there to walk through. Pure beauty.
This is where they try to get me back from with the humor…sorry I think I’ll stay here while you all are working on my frame.
Peace my Friend.
mark
April 25, 2008 at 10:14 am
TWM/Mark, I can see this is going to take some time in responding to, time of which I have none today. I too have to go our into the world today and it being one of those “edema” days, it’s gonna be a rough one.
I just wanted to let you know Mark that you’re holding down the fort here for now and I appreciate it, I appreciate you and I’ve learned some great things reading here from you lately. You’re a most excellent person and I value what you have to say very much.
((((Mark)))
Fi, Hey man, I’m glad to see you here, it’s been a while and yes, I know it’s been forever since I’ve been to see you. It’s taking everything I have right now to keep my head up and out of the water. I just wanted you to know that your visit has not gone unnoticed. You’re another one of those good folks that I’m always happy to see.
Since I haven’t been writing here, most folks have wandered off and all I can say is - I cared, I did what I could and I’ll never truly understand many people, but at least I do understand my own self which is the ultimate one I need to understand.
“What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us.”
~ Ralph Emerson ~ 1803-1862
April 26, 2008 at 3:05 am
Whooooa Ruby don’t make comments like that about me, if anyone from The D comes here it could really ruin my credibility to function. hahahahaha ahahaha ahahahaah
Thank you, You are too kind. In a way though from my perspective, you offer ma a sanctuary, where I don’t have to hit the mark with every post, writing or, piece of poetry. I can just let go here and free write along with the music in my headphones. Over at TWM I am the poet, the commentator and, I use that writing to specifically judge the thoughts of my “audience” towards my creative output. Not that I would taper my voice to what others think, that is anathema to me, but if for example a certain poem goes over well and the responses are wide and varied I know that it may be a piece I want to read before an audience at some point.
or
Like in my last post yesterday there is a decided lack of comment because it is a stronger, that is less subtle, statement towards a social issue. BANG! it is right there in your face, and not at all easy to miss the point of.
Where in the last few subtler pieces, some people, never saw what I was saying. I could tell from the comments. And from those comments there is insight into whether it is the piece that fails or the reader. Inevitably it is the piece, for being too oblique. *sigh* even though I have no desire to get back in the business end of this business of writing, I do want to adhere to some sort of artistic standard which I may have set to high.
*shrug* This writing endeavor, next to smoking is the one thing in my life which has, for good or evil been going on longer than anything else.
The good in me, Honey, that is God, the teacher, the One who allows me to walk. While a longtime companion (millenia long, from that One’s perspective.) I have been smoking and writing longer.
Hey serendipity again. We’re in the P’s and along comes The Pretenders. I try not to but sometimes you have to “fake it, ’til you make it.”
I have made it to the place I am intended to be, struggled for and finally was allowed to just be an embodiment of what a spiritual man can be. Yet in all things one has to be human as well. The peace is when the balance between the soul(mind) and spirit is found.
Then it is all good.
Peace my walking Friend.
mark
April 26, 2008 at 3:04 pm
Nay Lassie I dina. forget Ye” I left a post here in the wee hours of the morning, why beejaysus and glory it is gone! *sigh* such is the way of the little folk acting up before the light o’day shines upon their (to them) merry mischief.
It must have been the breeze of the Walking One that carried me back here this afternoon to say How do you do Madam, and thank you for the kind words. {even if they do ruin my rep as a prick} I appreciate them mightly and humbly accept them and the chance to be the gate keeper of your door.
Peace
mark
April 27, 2008 at 2:41 am
I think I was mistaken as to where the music train was, certainly of the 26 station line, it was not at P but T stop(The. I sort of got confused when I thought of it because I rode Radiohead’s Rocket [another album much like Tubular Bells in that Chris Conner is Radiohead] through the R’s and then hit the Psychedelic Furs.
If you listened to indy rock in the eighties you must know their name, Ruby, if not, then you are a late comer to their music as I was. Although they had a few mainstream charters, for the most part they simply had a prodigious output of discs. (think Pretty in Pink, Love My Way) Kind of a cross generally between the headbangers music & the faux nihilism of the 80’s. It’s all good though because rarely do I get beyond the instruments and the songs hook.
I see the gremlins reversed themselves and displayed the first post of yesterday…what would my life be without these wonders of it, eh?
I moved you much higher on the hit parade as well Ruby, getting to you in the beginning of my blogosphere rounds as opposed to the middle of it.
Why you ask?
Ham, pork, pure swine is all. Even without daily responses I know you read here and that is a slight massage to my “writer’s ego”…ha ha ha ha, self serving prick that I am. {got to maintain my cred, honey.}
I spent Saturday getting car maintenance and smokes for the next couple of weeks, gas for the horse with more than a quarter million miles on it and still delivering better than 30 mpg, when driven by the tachometer instead of the speedometer.
It is a mechanics thing to drive according to transmission shifts rather than speed limit, slowly increase speed to the 1st, 2nd and 3rd shifts and then back off the speed to the point where you stay in overdrive and not shift back into third gear…I was a mechanic, a Certified by two different agencies as a Master Mechanic, but yesterday as I let the boys go to work on my car it hit me that…
at the end of ‘09 it will be ten years since I was forced off the payroll and put on workman’s comp which led to my current state of affairs as a blue collar man, non-existent.
I think of all that I miss, I miss the purging of evil intent in my foremen minds. Ha ha ha ha ha ha that department (DPW) was ill prepared for the constant rage that carried me through the nearly 20 years of municipal employment.
It was battle after battle back then but now is just fond memory of the losses and wins. Someone else will have to tally up the body count to determine the winner, the rage is gone now, back to it’s proper home and I have moved away from the things that used to evoke, mostly, by understanding and forgiving myself for the propensity for war among them and them for creating situations that made them feel omnipotent.
That omnipotence balloon was my favorite to burst. I wish I had kept some of the writing I was doing those days so I could compare myself to myself. *shrug* what is past is past no?
Wellllll, the time has come, the bell’s and whistles are tuning up as the train must of necessity move on to bother others round the globe…But as the Psych Furs say, I am glad I came for; “I’m in a mood for you, love you can’t give it away” nope you can’t give it away but laying it here at your doorstep is good enough while I think on the receiver and it’s return.
Much Peace Ruby.
mark
April 27, 2008 at 7:00 pm
Well, I’ve always taken a liking to Mozart’s piano concerto #11 in A major. (don’t tell….LOL)
Been kinda rocky roads for a couple of weeks….gettin’ used to doing things differently and trying to keep me and my precious attitude where it needs to be…..has been AFGO, for certain.
I’ve dropped by the other blog–had some reads and feel kinda inadequate to the task..(?).. of leaving my handprint?
Probably brainfuzz on my part…..LOL That’s been known to be the case lately.
*HUGS*
Thinkin’ of ya…..
Even with brainfuzz.
April 27, 2008 at 7:08 pm
k….. truth is I used to play Mozart’s piano concerto #11 in A major.
Fairly well, I’m told….
Haven’t played it in what seems like a bazillion years…….but I pulled out a CD so I could smile.
And smiling is happening.
Thank you!
April 28, 2008 at 1:53 am
Yes Mel it is.
Peace
TWM
June 9, 2008 at 9:42 pm
Just like the phoenix rising from the ashes!
I am definitely one who believes that the more tragic moments of my life were the most formative ones—in a good way. I teach in a high school and I often hear students complain “Why do we have to learn history?” Because, it is so, so true that if you don’t learn from the mistakes of the past, you’re bound to repeat them! Let’s learn from our mistakes and become better and stronger because of them.
June 21, 2008 at 6:37 pm
thank you it warms the soul just at the right time